Fly Franklin Females.
he was my high school love. even back then he would say "that someday i was going to be his wife." we split when i was in college because i didn't want a long distance relationship. and also because he dropped out of highschool and i was disappointed in him and didn't like the direction his life was going.
we randomly tracked each other down and hung out every few years or so, and the energy between us has always been there. but either he was in a relationship or i was. and we both had a mutual respect for each others partners so we never talked about our true feelings for each other. yet he always had a way of kidding around about "me becoming his wife,"
fast forward to 2008...
i track him down earlier this year. he's been in a committed relationship for 3 years, i've been in a relationship for 5 years. my relationship ended horribly a few months ago. his girl cheated on him.
a few days ago we finally hang out. in a nutshell, he tells me how he's always known that i was the one for him, but understood that we had to have different life experiences until the time was right; and the times we hung out we were NOT right for each other because we were still 'growing.' and he also expressed how he couldn't truly step to me until he felt secure enough as a man to ask me to be his wife. he's confident that now is the time for me to be his wife and asked me!
if he had asked me to marry him at 19 i probably would have; but i wouldn't be on the path of life i'm on now. i feel that now we would complete each other.
we only talked btw. we didn't kiss and we haven't had sex together in years. of course i gotta tap dat before i make actual life changing decisions, but his confidence in us is strong. i feel the same way, but i'm a bit taken aback because its all happened so suddenly.
we have to take it slow because even though we know each other, we have a lot of ground to cover and catching up to do.
but back to the subject, last night we were talking about our sexual exploits as youth and thats how the subject of fellatio came up.
hb4t, that is a touching story and i wish you the best, but be careful. I am also 29, and a lot has changed since I was 19. The same should be expected with your guy.
a lot HAS changed and we're totally aware of it. he keeps telling me how much i've changed more than he has; though going to iraq has probably changed him more than i can imagine. he still lives in the same city we grew up in outside of ATL.
i did change somewhat drastically i guess...its usually the first thing people comment on who knew me in highschool.
back then we both immersed ourselves in hip hop culture which is how we met. i was a hardcore hip hop shorty who always dressed in the best lugz/wu wear/tims and never wore a dress.
when i came to ATL house music found me and helped shaped me to become the woman i am today; and i can't wait to introduce him to my other culture.