i really do. im on my way to the liquor store. maybe im depressed. how can a person thats depressed tell that they are depressed? im laughing at what i just said. i dont feel like doing anything. im better off druck. thats what i call the way i feel. drunk and fucked up. drucked. lazy. but i look good. i just feel in between crying and laughing. i may be bi polar. i dont even think i spelled that right. see what im saying. my self esteem isnt low. i just cant figure out what to do with it right now. it being me. it being my job. it being my stuff. it being the drink im going to buy for breakfast. im not hungry. i feel uneasy and confused. let me brush my teeth.